14/4/10 If you look closely to the right of the broad bean tripods you can see some green leaves-that is broccoli. I hope in a few months time I can post an after shot with sinuous beans twining around the tripods and bushy plants heavy with heads of broccoli. The other picture is of about to go basil and miniscule carrot seedlings, which I thinned out today.
I have been meditating twice a day with varying results and reading a lot of literature obtained from Buddhanet. The day before yesterday I was sitting in the sun and my mind was troubled and distracted. I continually had to drag my thoughts back to my breath, the all of a sudden, after about half an hour, I felt very calm and my mind was quiet. It was as though my mind was a lake's surface ruffled by breeze, then still as a mirror as the breeze died.
Yesterday and today I have had less success, with thoughts continually straying to planning, remembering, worrying etc etc. Meditation is hard! I was nearly put off completely when I read an essay by a psychologist who was a Buddhist monk for some years. He went on a retreat and became obsessively irritated by two noisy practitioners. He fantasised about shoving a meditation cushion up one guy's nose. This went on for 3 days! And this was a man who has been practicing for years and years! Anyway, I have been trying to generate metta and not get irritated and live in the moment and I blew it all in 15 minutes of a tirade this morning, complete with shouting. And the person I shouted at was my nephew, who I am trying to help with school work. Nice.
Obviously I have a long way to go.
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